Monday, December 8, 2008

The Last Song Syndrome 5: Any Major Dude Will Tell You (Steely Dan), every Sunday...almost

Have you ever seen a squonk's tears? Well, look at mine
The people on the street have all seen better times
- Steely Dan, Any Major Dude Will Tell You

Sunday would have been my most favorite day of the week. Sunday evokes memories of yore, and it is not once that I have talked about this, for I have some of my Sunday recollections tucked here. I remember my late mother and her nilagang baka and daing na bangus with sugar (ask a Capampangan and he'd know what I mean). I remember my father and the hours he spent watching undubbed Chinese movies (actors in theater make-up and traditional Chinese costumes), Jeanne Young's Spin-A-Win, and his weekly gig at the San Lazaro Hippodrome. I remember my sister sneaking out of the house and playing with the neighbors' kids. My brother was too young to remember that we used to carry him around the house and we certainly adored his cute face to bits. This is how I remember some of the best Sundays of my life.

Sadly, Sunday heralds both the end and start of a week, the end and the start of a chapter of life. It sucks when good times have to end, and even though we know at the back of our minds that tomorrow bears the promise of another good day, somehow we just cannot let go. Does it make sense then that Sunday, to me, is both my most and least favorite day of the week?

And for this reason, I delegate Saturday as my most favorite day instead. The rationale is less tortuous. But I digress.

Sunday is the same day that I associate some of the most poignant songs I have ever listened to in my lifetime. Frank Sinatra is one of my father's favorites, and every Sunday his songs were staples in our phonograph. So were Paul Anka, Connie Francis, and Shirley Bassey, all playing no end, melodies of love found and love gone filling our little home, much to my, uhmmm, dismay. I wanted more contemporary songs, but of course, the elders won. It was not until many years later that I learned to appreciate Ol' Blue Eyes and company.

A few years later, I would learn about Steely Dan. No one in the house ever listened to Steely Dan. Too bad, for I feel that the mood of almost every Steely Dan song match the general childhood Sunday mood. Happy but not, bittersweet for the most part. If I will allow it, I could, right now, turn into a squonk, but this is not the whole point of living...not even living a memory. Life is all about moving on.

So yes, I have the makings of a squonk, in a sense. In times of melancholy, one may find me standing stoically (probably in some forest in Pennsylvania, where the squonks come from), and one may see a pool of tears within the vicinity. But unlike a squonk, I do not dissolve with the tears. I am just there, wearing my usual wistful smile, and one would not even know that it was I who has shed tears....

(picture of squonk from this site)


christine said...

i know i have a lot of catching up to do. it's been crazy -- i'm sure it's the same at your end. anyhoo, i just want to greet you an early MERRY CHRISTMAS! (before things start to get crazy(er)) and to say thanks for sharing my little site with me (and your thoughts whenever you could ;-)). here's to a happy everyday (not just saturday and sunday? hehe) in 2009!

ness said...

hi doc!

i'm waiting for your entry to TBR Christmas edition, let's emote about Christmas! Memorable/inforgettable Christmas past, childhood Christmas dreams and the like...

Have a Blessed Christmas!